Kitab\u0131m\u0131 okuyup ta bana sitem ile soran okurlar\u0131ma. 1963 Ardahan\u2019 \u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir k\u00f6y\u00fcnde do\u011fmu\u015fum. Herkes \u00f6yle der ya hani “d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en g\u00fczel yeri oras\u0131” tamamen do\u011fru. Zemheriymi\u015f ben d\u00fcnyaya gelirken. Belki o so\u011fuktur ki, s\u0131ca\u011fa ve s\u0131cak insana duydu\u011fum \u00f6zlem hep kaynar durur i\u00e7imde. Ardahan \u00c7\u00f6l de\u011fildir ama \u00e7\u00f6l insan\u0131n\u0131n karekterini ta\u015f\u0131r insan\u0131. En az\u0131ndan bende bu b\u00f6yle. Arkas\u0131na saklan\u0131lacak bir a\u011fa\u00e7 yoktur orada. \u00c7ocuklar saklanba\u00e7 oynarken bile ayanda oynamak zorunda kal\u0131rlar. Bu do\u011fan\u0131n insanda olu\u015fturdu\u011fu karakter \u00f6lene kadar izler onu. B\u00fct\u00fcn oyunlar ortada olur art\u0131k. Tanr\u0131dan ba\u015fka otorite tan\u0131maz Ardahan\u2019da \u00e7ocuklar. Belkide asi ruhlu olu\u015flar\u0131 ordan gelir. Ne do\u011faya s\u0131\u011farlar, ne sisteme s\u0131\u011farlar, ne de kendilerine. Ata \u00e7\u0131plak binmeyi severler Ardahanda \u00c7ocuklar, yurals\u0131z, dizginsiz, e\u011fersiz. Yelesinden tutup r\u00fczgar ile bir olmakt\u0131r at binmek Ardahan\u2019da. Ata, g\u00fczele ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe tutkundur Ardahanl\u0131. Belkide tez \u00f6l\u00fc\u015fleri ondand\u0131r. Korku bilmez, hile bilmez, \u0130stanbul oyunlar\u0131 hi\u00e7 bilmez. D\u00fcnya bir yana g\u00fczel biryanad\u0131r Ardahan\u2019l\u0131ya. Ama gene de ne d\u00fcnyada ne de g\u00fczelde kal\u0131r g\u00f6zleri. \u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle bir d\u00fcnyaya a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f\u0131m g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc. Saklamba\u00e7 oynad\u0131m ayanda, at s\u00fcrd\u00fcm ayl\u0131 ays\u0131z gecelerinde da\u011flar\u0131n, yurals\u0131z. Sonra g\u00fcn geldi okul a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Ne oldu\u011funu bilmeden, \u00fcstelik de ya\u015f\u0131m da tutmadan, en b\u00fcy\u00fck heyecanla kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6vm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm okulun. Heyecan\u0131m \u00e7ok olsa gerek ki \u00f6\u011fretmenim k\u0131ramam\u015f beni ve birdaha geri g\u00f6ndermemi\u015f. \u0130\u015fte o g\u00fcnden beri okurum. Elime ne ge\u00e7se okurum. Reklam panolar\u0131na kadar okurum. \u00d6n\u00fcmden bir araba ge\u00e7se plakas\u0131n\u0131 okurum. Bir tutkudur bende okumak. En sevdi\u011fim kitap, Sefiller dir Viktor Hugo\u2019dan. En sevdi\u011fim \u015eair Homeros\u2019tur.\u00a0 Sonra Ya\u015far Kemal gelir. Homeros gibi yazar. Ne deli hoyrat yazar. Ne garipki t\u00fcrk cahili (aydn\u0131) k\u00f6yl\u00fc yazar\u0131 ilan etti bir ara. \u0130lk okulu, k\u0131\u015f\u0131n kar\u0131n ve kargalar\u0131n \u00e7ok oldu\u011fu k\u00f6y\u00fcmde bitirdim. Ortaokul ve Liseyi \u0130zmir\u2019in Tire il\u00e7esinde yat\u0131l\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenci olrak okudum. Tire g\u00fczeldi. Do\u011fa harikayd\u0131 ama, Tirel’i Ardahan\u2019dan da so\u011fuktu. Hele baz\u0131 hocalar\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131, ve bunlara kim diploma verip \u00f6\u011fretmen etmi\u015fti hala daha anlayabilmi\u015f de\u011filim. Hapishaneleri daha \u00e7ok da t\u0131marhaneleri doldurmas\u0131 gereken adamlara diploma verip \u00f6\u011fretmen yapm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Liseyi ha bitirdim ha bitireca\u011f\u0131m derken bir darbe oldu memlekete. Evet tam\u0131 tam\u0131na darbe oldu. Hapishaneler doldu ama, bir yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131k vard\u0131 gene bu d\u00fcnyada. Bizim ka\u00e7k\u0131nlar hala ortada dolan\u0131yordu. Peki darbe kimeydi o \u00e7ocuk akl\u0131mla anlayamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Her nedense darbeciler bizim de pe\u015fimize d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Tanr\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi kulu olsam gerek ki, darbeye ra\u011fmen darbesiz kurtulduk o karanl\u0131k g\u00fcnlerden. Lise bitmeden s\u00fcrg\u00fcne g\u00f6nderdiler bizi. \u00d6nce Mu\u015f\u2019 sonra \u00dcrg\u00fcp\u2019 e . Kimi s\u0131lah s\u0131kt\u0131 geceme, kimi at bindi pe\u015fimden s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Karayd\u0131lar hepsi. Karanl\u0131k gecenin karas\u0131 gibi kara. Sonra g\u00fcn oldu \u00fcn\u00fcversite kap\u0131lar\u0131na dayand\u0131k. Herkes gibi bende memleketi kurtarmadan ba\u015flad\u0131m. Marmara \u00dcn\u00fcversitesi Siyasal bilimler fak\u00fcltesine girdim. Ben okulu bitirmeden, belki d\u00f6rt kere ad\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirdiler. Me\u011fer ne kadar bi\u00e7ime d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f bizim millet. Bunu hala daha kavrayabilmi\u015f de\u011filiz. \u00dcn\u00fcversiteyi bitirince hemen askere gittim. Sak\u0131ncal\u0131d\u0131r diye yazm\u0131\u015flar k\u00fct\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme. Neye ve kime sak\u0131ncal\u0131ysam. Askerden d\u00f6n\u00fcnce \u00c7elik Halat ad\u0131nda bir fambrikan\u0131n muhasebe servisinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m d\u00f6rt y\u0131l. O d\u00f6rt y\u0131l bana d\u00f6rty\u00fczy\u0131l gibi gelmi\u015fti. Ve bo\u011fulmadan \u00e7ekler senetler aras\u0131nda terkettim \u00c7elik Halat\u0131. \u00c7elik Halat ile birlikte Memleketimi ve memleketimin g\u00fczelini\u00a0 b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fczelliklerini terk ettim. 1992 de gitti\u011fim Almanya\u2019da Sosyoloji ve politika okudum. Sosyolojide mast\u0131r yapt\u0131m. Ayn\u0131 \u00fcn\u00fcversitenin Mimarl\u0131k Fak\u00fcltesinin Sanat Enstit\u00fcs\u00fc\u2019nde 10 y\u0131l ara\u015ft\u0131rmac\u0131 olarak \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. O y\u0131llarda bir Japon g\u00fczeliyle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ressam kendisi. Evliyim iki g\u00fczel k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z var. Biri 12 ya\u015f\u0131nda ve di\u011feri alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nda. Almanca \u0130ngilizce ve japonca bilmekteyim. En \u00e7ok severek yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u015f saz \u00e7almak, en \u00e7ok \u00f6zledi\u011fim ise yal\u0131n ata binmektir. Ya\u015fam\u0131n Gizemi Su ve Tuz kitab\u0131n\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda e\u015fimle birlikte haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m 3 resimli edebiyat kitab\u0131m var, yak\u0131nda yay\u0131nlanacak. \u00dc\u00e7 sanat ve d\u00f6k\u00fcmentari filimimiz var. Bunlardan ikisi Almanyada ve Japonyada Uluslararas\u0131 Film festivallerinde g\u00f6sterildi. Sanat ve edebiyat \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda, \u015fu anda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir kitap daha var. Kanser bir hastal\u0131k de\u011fildir. En \u00e7ok da gecede yak\u0131\u015f\u0131r bana h\u00fcz\u00fcn Baharda sevda yak\u0131\u015f\u0131r bana G\u00fclerim, kahkahalar i\u00e7inde deli hoyrat, yak\u0131\u015f\u0131r \u00d6fkem bir deli dibek gibidir, yak\u0131\u015f\u0131r Tutu\u015furken sevdaya Kerem gibiyimdir Ah demem yanl\u0131zca, k\u00fcl\u00fcm bile kalmaz geriye, bilirim Yani s\u00f6z\u00fcn k\u0131sas\u0131 Neyi tutsam ucundan adam ederim Here\u015feyine sevdal\u0131y\u0131md\u0131r ya\u015fam\u0131n \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. 5.12.2011 Y\u00fccel Aydemir<\/p>\n
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Kitab\u0131m\u0131 okuyup ta bana sitem ile soran okurlar\u0131ma. 1963 Ardahan\u2019 \u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir k\u00f6y\u00fcnde do\u011fmu\u015fum. Herkes \u00f6yle der ya hani “d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en g\u00fczel yeri oras\u0131” tamamen do\u011fru. Zemheriymi\u015f ben d\u00fcnyaya gelirken. Belki o so\u011fuktur ki, s\u0131ca\u011fa ve s\u0131cak insana duydu\u011fum \u00f6zlem hep kaynar durur i\u00e7imde. Ardahan \u00c7\u00f6l de\u011fildir ama \u00e7\u00f6l insan\u0131n\u0131n karekterini ta\u015f\u0131r insan\u0131. En […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-986","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/yucelaydemir.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/986","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/yucelaydemir.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/yucelaydemir.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yucelaydemir.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yucelaydemir.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=986"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/yucelaydemir.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/986\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1976,"href":"https:\/\/yucelaydemir.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/986\/revisions\/1976"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/yucelaydemir.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=986"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}